a little birdie ? ? more like a certain PINK FLAMINGO spilled to him in exchange for something . ‘ you do know jess makes things up to spice up her own life , right ? ? ’
❛ as if she needs something to spice her life up. ❜
❛ i mean, if it wasn’t for the fact that you were so obvious –––– ❜
‘ how many times can i say I’M SORRY for what happened , josh ? ? i don’t know how else to make it up to you , we screwed up , no way to fix it . we didn’t plan for them to run out , and i was stupidly stoned . i’d never smoked pot before , and i went along with them . ’
people do messed up things when they’re stoned. josh has never been an exception to this rule, so, in a way, he can sympathize with ash. doesn’t mean he’s not fucking pissed, and it sure as hell doesn’t mean he’s forgiven her, or anyone else, for what they did to hannah, how they caused his little sisters to go missing for no fucking reason. but he’s so fucking tired of the apologies, okay. he’s so goddamn tired. the weed helps take the edge off, especially now, so when he replies to her, he’s not snapping.
he’s only half paying attention to what she’s saying, his attention far too concentrated on the game in front of him. they’ve been spending more time together, him and ashley, playing video games and blocking out the world around them, in a simple attempt to just forget about what happened. the game today is hello, neighbor, and josh is going to beat it this time, okay.
it’s been a tough day on everyone. hannah and beth’s candle-lighting service was beautiful beyond words, even if it shouldn’t have happened in the first place. almost everyone they went to high school with was there –––– sports teams, after school clubs, even some of the teachers had attended the service. but all josh feels is empty. the group is the only ones left at the town center. chris was murmuring to jess about something, while sam and mike were having their own conversation. matt and emily were sitting quietly, staring in front of them blankly. which left josh and ashley. they weren’t the closest of friends in the group, but that didn’t mean that josh felt anything but love and adoration for her. even if it’s been.. a bit less, since the prank. her words make him freeze up, and his heart begins to beat just a bit faster than before. because he felt the same way. still, he was going to do his damnedest to at least try to make her smile.
❛ but smiling is a good look on you. ❜ it’s his attempt of lightening up the mood, but it comes out just a bit too quiet to have done enough. but then he’s knocking his shoulder against hers, his lips curling up in an almost smile. ❛ it’s okay to not want to smile. but.. i have a feeling that hannah and beth would want us all to be happy. you know? if –––– they’re out there, somewhere. i know they are. and they’re gonna come home safe. but for now, we need to think about what they would want from us. so.. at least try to smile. for them. please ?❜for me.
right? how does it feel? do you enjoy feeling terrorized? humiliated? i mean, panicked? all those emotions that my sisters got to feel once one year ago! only guess what? they didn't get to laugh it off! no! nope! no no no! they're gone!
REGULATIONS
oh sure. i'm totally just crying out for help. "help me! oh help me! help help." come on! come on! it was just for fun! i mean, so you got a little bit of egg on your face, right? nobody got hurt--
BASICS
howdy! my name is rowan, but you can call me rowie. i'm eighteen years old, a second semester full-time freshman, who has two current jobs! this blog is going to have extremely spotty activity, so if you could be patient, that would be awesome!
following + unfollowing
this blog is extremely private & selective. because of this, i am very particular on who i decide to and not follow back. 99% of the time, it has nothing to do with you or your writing. i simply like having a calm dash, and following too many people brings up a bit of anxiety for me. I WILL ONLY BE ROLEPLAYING WITH MUTUALS. in terms of unfollowing, i may do so for a few reasons. if you don't cut your posts, if we're in a mutual and you unfollow me first, or if you send hate to me or one of my friends/vague about us (this may also result in a block). on ocassion, i might unfollow for untagged nsfw images, but that's very rare. on a slightly related note, i am open to mains & exclusives! just im me and we can totally talk about it!
other important things.
shipping is not my top priority, nor is it josh's. but, ngl, i am totally a sucker for ships as long as they have chemistry. i'm also totally fine with shipping josh with oc's, should the chemistry ever be there! although this blog is multi-ship, it should be mentioned that the only chris i will be shipping josh with is thecochiise. please respect this ! and, please, don't godmod my muse. i won't godmod yours. it's really just rude as #heck. there will be HEAVY TRIGGERS on this blog. they include, but are not limited to, blood, gore, cannibalism, murder, mental illness, suicide, and sexual content. all triggers will be tagged as "[trigger] //". if i ever forget to tag something for you, just let me know and i will do so automatically! i want everyone to feel comfortable.
and that's pretty much it! this isn't necessary, especially if you feel uncomfortable about passwords, but if you could send your favorite joke or pun into my ask, i would really appreciate it! it just lets me know that you read my rules, and they make me laugh a lot. but, like i said, it totally isn't necessary! thanks for taking the time to read my rules!
default verse. takes place anywhere between chapter one and chapter two of until dawn. he's isolated himself away from his "friends" after the disappearnce of his sisters, but that doesn't mean he's not planning anything.
takes place approximately three weeks after the events of until dawn. josh has been found, but he's not –––– he's not quite josh, anymore. his teeth are sharp and his eyes are dim, and he's craving the taste of raw meat. he's not quite a wendigo, but he's not human, either.
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"Too often have I heard of duty," she cried. "But am I not of the House of Eorl, a SHIELDMAIDEN and not a dry-nurse. I have waited on faltering feet long enough. Since they falter no longer, it seems, may I not now spend my life as I will?"
ABOUT SECTION
Full Name: joshua washington.
Nicknames: josh, bro.
Age: 20 (as of early 2015).
Birth date: may 3rd, 1995.
Ethnicity: half egyptian.
Gender: cis male.
Romantic Orientation: biromantic.
Sexual Orientation: bisexual.
Religion: atheist
Spoken Language: english & french, both fluent.
Current Living Arrangements: fluxuates between his parents "mansion" and his (rather large) apartment.
Occupation: college dropout.
Relationships
Parents: melinda washington (mother), bob washington (father, distant).
Siblings: hannah & beth washington (deceased).
Romantic Partner: none.
Children: none.
Physical Traits
Eye Color: green.
Hair Color: dark brown.
Height: 5'9"
Body Build: slender.
Tattoos & Piercings: none.
Notable Physical Traits: his skin is the shade of "caramel". when he smiles, it's with his whole face and being. he has scars along his forearms, there due to past attempts of suicide.
Phobias and Disorders
Phobias: monophobia. athazagoraphobia.
Mental Disorders: paranoid schizrophrenia. major depression.
Time of Diagnosis: the depression was diagnosed at age eleven. he as been undiagnosed for everything else.
Personality
Intelligence: he's very intelligent, but doesn't apply it. he dropped out of college.
Determination levels: extremely dependent on subject. if it's only about himself, he will be highly determined.
Likes: drinking, sleeping, movies, baseball, partying.
Dislikes: excessive heat. being alone. being sober. medication. his therapists.
crying out for help.
who is in control?
turned into a monster.
VERSE NAME.