he hasn’t eaten in weeks, having rather died than turn into one of those things, what hannah had turned into. he can’t bring himself to eat the corpse of another human being. death is, in part, what josh wants. sure, he’d rather go out quick, painless. but he’s starving, and the gash on his head from when hannah dropped him was still bleeding out. infected. disgusting. just him the rest of him. green eyes close, and josh simply lays there, waiting, praying –––– let this be the last time he closes his eyes.
❛ –––– JOSH!❜
no no no no no. not again, not another hallucination of mike. with a great amount of effort, josh opens his eyes, a small whine leaving his throat as he squints in the dark. there’s a bright light, somewhere in the distance, causing the washington to groan. too bright, too bright. footsteps approach. there’s hands on him, now, checking him over. his face, his head.
❛ josh, hey, it’s me –––– it’s mike. you’re.. you’re gonna be okay, man. hey, can you hear me ? josh !❜ mike’s voice is frantic, and josh slightly turns his head so he could look over at him. the smallest, gentlest of smiles makes it’s way onto josh’s face, and he reaches out to mike. mike takes his hand, squeezing tightly, and josh lets out a loud cough. ❛ you.. you came back for me.. ❜ josh whispers, taking in a shaky breath. mike nods, pulling josh into his arms and rocking him back and forth. ❛ i’ll always come back for you, josh. ❜
the older man nods every so slightly, sighing in content as his forehead rests on mike’s shoulder. everything hurt, and everything was fading. ❛ i think.. i think this is it, mike, ❜ he mumbled, voice barely over a whisper. mike shook his head, muttering quickly, a frantic no no no no no no no please josh no. josh’s heart ached, ached for mike, but he knew that his time was up. with the remaining strength that he had, josh surged his head up and pressed his lips against mike’s. ❛ i.. i love.. ❜
His fingers still as Josh grabs his wrist, and he nods, shifting around until he was laying in the bed next to him.
“I’ll stay here until you doze off, then I’m sneaking back into the living room to beat your high score on the game.” He teases, scrunching up his nose as he lets out a laugh. “Then in the morning, we’ll play again and I’ll kick your ass, Washington.”
❛ bro, you couldn’t beat my high score in a million years. ❜
he swats lightly at mike, letting his head roll ever so slightly onto the other’s shoulder. his eyes are shut completely by this point, and he’s tugging the blankets up so he could be completely wrapped in a toasty little cocoon. ❛ there’s no way you could beat me when i’m at my normal status. ❜
dear god, he shouldn’t be doing this. josh is still fucking pissed, he’ll always be pissed at mike for what he and emily did to hannah, for what they did to make his baby sisters go missing. but, and god help him, he still wants mike. it’s stupid. it’s borderline crazy. but he doesn’t care. fingers grip onto mike’s shirt, and he tugs him down so he can kiss him, full on.
there’s a moment where josh completely freezes up, eyes going wide and hands starting to shake. oh, boy. he hadn’t been expecting mike to say something like that. josh stutters for a moment, trying to gather his thoughts. what the fuck.
❛ uhm.. you sayin’ you love me or somethin’, mikey ? that’s kinda gay, bro. ❜
❛ you need to fucking leave, michael. please, don’t make this harder than it already is, and just.. just go. ❜ he wipes at his eyes, ever so slightly, and tries to force himself to keep from crying. goddamn, he told himself he wouldn’t break down anymore.❛ i can’t –––– ❜
a moment of hesitation, followed by a slight shrug of the shoulders. he never really liked valentine’s day –––– it was tacky and overly romanticized( hah ) and, seeing as how he never really saw his parents celebrate it, he never really thought to. but, this was mike who was asking, so..
Once he turns back to Josh, Mike laughs, throwing him some sweatpants. He makes his way over, sitting on the edge of the bed. “I don’t have to leave.” He mumbles, “But I figure you’d want me to go so you could get some sleep.”
He’s quiet for a moment, reaching over to play with Josh’s hair as he looks down at him. “I’ll stay, if that’s what you want. I don’t have any other plans tonight.”
he’s half tempted to swipe mike’s hand away from his hair, simply out of instinct, but it feels nice, and it’s causing his eyes to drop a small amount, bit by tiny bit. so, he does what every straight guy obviously does and grips onto mike’s wrist.
Mike’s head tilts toward Josh, his grip on the controller loosening just slightly as he tries to figure out where his friend is, exactly. They played this game before–dozens of times, actually–and Josh usually kicks his ass, but now, he’s dosing off in the middle of a game. As his head rests on his shoulder, Mike laughs, pausing the game, and reaching over to pat Josh’s head.
“Sure, no homo, bro. But are you feelin’ alright? Should I take you to bed or something?”
as mike pets the top of josh’s head, the elder can’t help but smile. it felt nice, comforting, and his eyes flutter as he struggles to keep them open. jesus, this sucks. it’s barely eight thirty, and here he is, practically passing out on his crush friend.
❛ i mean, if you wanna carry me to bed, i wouldn’t complain. ❜
right? how does it feel? do you enjoy feeling terrorized? humiliated? i mean, panicked? all those emotions that my sisters got to feel once one year ago! only guess what? they didn't get to laugh it off! no! nope! no no no! they're gone!
REGULATIONS
oh sure. i'm totally just crying out for help. "help me! oh help me! help help." come on! come on! it was just for fun! i mean, so you got a little bit of egg on your face, right? nobody got hurt--
BASICS
howdy! my name is rowan, but you can call me rowie. i'm eighteen years old, a second semester full-time freshman, who has two current jobs! this blog is going to have extremely spotty activity, so if you could be patient, that would be awesome!
following + unfollowing
this blog is extremely private & selective. because of this, i am very particular on who i decide to and not follow back. 99% of the time, it has nothing to do with you or your writing. i simply like having a calm dash, and following too many people brings up a bit of anxiety for me. I WILL ONLY BE ROLEPLAYING WITH MUTUALS. in terms of unfollowing, i may do so for a few reasons. if you don't cut your posts, if we're in a mutual and you unfollow me first, or if you send hate to me or one of my friends/vague about us (this may also result in a block). on ocassion, i might unfollow for untagged nsfw images, but that's very rare. on a slightly related note, i am open to mains & exclusives! just im me and we can totally talk about it!
other important things.
shipping is not my top priority, nor is it josh's. but, ngl, i am totally a sucker for ships as long as they have chemistry. i'm also totally fine with shipping josh with oc's, should the chemistry ever be there! although this blog is multi-ship, it should be mentioned that the only chris i will be shipping josh with is thecochiise. please respect this ! and, please, don't godmod my muse. i won't godmod yours. it's really just rude as #heck. there will be HEAVY TRIGGERS on this blog. they include, but are not limited to, blood, gore, cannibalism, murder, mental illness, suicide, and sexual content. all triggers will be tagged as "[trigger] //". if i ever forget to tag something for you, just let me know and i will do so automatically! i want everyone to feel comfortable.
and that's pretty much it! this isn't necessary, especially if you feel uncomfortable about passwords, but if you could send your favorite joke or pun into my ask, i would really appreciate it! it just lets me know that you read my rules, and they make me laugh a lot. but, like i said, it totally isn't necessary! thanks for taking the time to read my rules!
default verse. takes place anywhere between chapter one and chapter two of until dawn. he's isolated himself away from his "friends" after the disappearnce of his sisters, but that doesn't mean he's not planning anything.
takes place approximately three weeks after the events of until dawn. josh has been found, but he's not –––– he's not quite josh, anymore. his teeth are sharp and his eyes are dim, and he's craving the taste of raw meat. he's not quite a wendigo, but he's not human, either.
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"Too often have I heard of duty," she cried. "But am I not of the House of Eorl, a SHIELDMAIDEN and not a dry-nurse. I have waited on faltering feet long enough. Since they falter no longer, it seems, may I not now spend my life as I will?"
ABOUT SECTION
Full Name: joshua washington.
Nicknames: josh, bro.
Age: 20 (as of early 2015).
Birth date: may 3rd, 1995.
Ethnicity: half egyptian.
Gender: cis male.
Romantic Orientation: biromantic.
Sexual Orientation: bisexual.
Religion: atheist
Spoken Language: english & french, both fluent.
Current Living Arrangements: fluxuates between his parents "mansion" and his (rather large) apartment.
Occupation: college dropout.
Relationships
Parents: melinda washington (mother), bob washington (father, distant).
Siblings: hannah & beth washington (deceased).
Romantic Partner: none.
Children: none.
Physical Traits
Eye Color: green.
Hair Color: dark brown.
Height: 5'9"
Body Build: slender.
Tattoos & Piercings: none.
Notable Physical Traits: his skin is the shade of "caramel". when he smiles, it's with his whole face and being. he has scars along his forearms, there due to past attempts of suicide.
Phobias and Disorders
Phobias: monophobia. athazagoraphobia.
Mental Disorders: paranoid schizrophrenia. major depression.
Time of Diagnosis: the depression was diagnosed at age eleven. he as been undiagnosed for everything else.
Personality
Intelligence: he's very intelligent, but doesn't apply it. he dropped out of college.
Determination levels: extremely dependent on subject. if it's only about himself, he will be highly determined.
Likes: drinking, sleeping, movies, baseball, partying.
Dislikes: excessive heat. being alone. being sober. medication. his therapists.
crying out for help.
who is in control?
turned into a monster.
VERSE NAME.