it’s been two years since hannah and beth went missing. and a year since josh had thrown the prank of his own. though having been saved from the mountain, getting rescued before he could become one of those monsters, josh hadn’t seen anyone. he’s isolated himself from them, guilt eating away at him for months on end. he ignored their calls. he didn’t answer the door when they knocked. it was better to distance himself –––– he didn’t want to hurt them again. but then it’s three in the morning, and there’s knocking on his door, and he knows he shouldn’t answer it. but he can’t sleep in the dark anymore, not after seeing what he did on the mountain. the knocking should scare him. hell, it really does. but as he approaches the door, baseball bat in hand, he’s able to see a figure, a human figure, standing outside. wendigo’s don’t knock, idiot. he knows who it is automatically.
josh opens the front door, slowly, glancing up to meet mike’s gaze. there’s absolute silence between them, but something inside of them must have snapped at the same time. because a split second later, they’re reaching towards each other. lips meet, fingers get tangled in locks of hair. it’s tense and frantic and goddamn perfect, and josh is pouring everything he can into it mike backs him against the doorframe, fingers gripping onto the edge of josh’s shirt, and the washington could have melted right then and there.
❛ uhm, i guess i’m not surprised that you didn’t answer. i would be more surprised if you did. i just.. i just wanted to say, uh, hi. i’m.. not dead. i managed to get off of the mountain, and.. listen, man, it’s a bit hard to explain over the phone. can you –––– would you consider stopping by ? whenever you can. i’m.. this needs to be said, face to face. please, cochise. ❜
he hasn’t eaten in weeks, having rather died than turn into one of those things, what hannah had turned into. he can’t bring himself to eat the corpse of another human being. death is, in part, what josh wants. sure, he’d rather go out quick, painless. but he’s starving, and the gash on his head from when hannah dropped him was still bleeding out. infected. disgusting. just him the rest of him. green eyes close, and josh simply lays there, waiting, praying –––– let this be the last time he closes his eyes.
❛ –––– JOSH!❜
no no no no no. not again, not another hallucination of mike. with a great amount of effort, josh opens his eyes, a small whine leaving his throat as he squints in the dark. there’s a bright light, somewhere in the distance, causing the washington to groan. too bright, too bright. footsteps approach. there’s hands on him, now, checking him over. his face, his head.
❛ josh, hey, it’s me –––– it’s mike. you’re.. you’re gonna be okay, man. hey, can you hear me ? josh !❜ mike’s voice is frantic, and josh slightly turns his head so he could look over at him. the smallest, gentlest of smiles makes it’s way onto josh’s face, and he reaches out to mike. mike takes his hand, squeezing tightly, and josh lets out a loud cough. ❛ you.. you came back for me.. ❜ josh whispers, taking in a shaky breath. mike nods, pulling josh into his arms and rocking him back and forth. ❛ i’ll always come back for you, josh. ❜
the older man nods every so slightly, sighing in content as his forehead rests on mike’s shoulder. everything hurt, and everything was fading. ❛ i think.. i think this is it, mike, ❜ he mumbled, voice barely over a whisper. mike shook his head, muttering quickly, a frantic no no no no no no no please josh no. josh’s heart ached, ached for mike, but he knew that his time was up. with the remaining strength that he had, josh surged his head up and pressed his lips against mike’s. ❛ i.. i love.. ❜
He wants to stay here in this moment. Where Ashley isn’t screaming and both of them are living in a state that’s something close to okay. “ It’s not okay. But..Maybe it will be. Later. Eventually. Someday. “
❛ yeah, well, i won’t. ❜
❛ i don’t know.. i don’t know if i would say eventually. i don’t think we can ever find a sense of.. a sense of normalcy after all of this, cochise.. but.. maybe. just maybe.. we can learn to live with the not so okayness that’s happening ?❜
the words hurt, stinging against his skin like one would feel on a cold, frosty night. everyone seems to leave lately, don’t they ? ever since he was rescued from the mountain, his friends have only seen him for about five minutes at a time. hell, even chris struggled to stay with him for a socially acceptable amount of time. he thought it might be different with sam –––– looks like he was wrong.
❛ –––– that’s okay. everyone leaves. it’s fine if you do, too. ❜
He stops breathing, while waiting for Josh’s answer. He can’t bear the thought of Josh leaving, of being alone once again. He’s so tired of being alone, of his only company being the ghosts that scream in his head.
he brings chris’ hand to his chest, letting his best friend feel his rapid heartbeat start to calm down. he’s still tense –––– and that might just be the only emotion he has for the rest of his life. tense, anxious, scared. but, when he’s with chris, all those feelings die down, just a bit, and momentarily are replaced by something else entirely –––– hope.
He’s too absorbed in himself to notice Josh is crying at first. He can hear Emily’s pleading in the back of his head and it takes a moment for him to realize that the crying isn’t coming from his head. “ Josh..” He squeezes the others hand, trying to pull away from himself and focus on Josh. “ Just…stay. Please. “
STAY?! the word shocks him for a moment, enough for him to almost jerk away completely from chris. his heart is beating frantically, a rapid ba bum ba bum ba bum ba bum hitting against his ribcage. it verges on being almost painful, but he tries to ignore it. stay stay stay stay stay. he wants to flee. he wants to run away from this. but this is chris. how could he leave his best friend ?❛ –––– okay, ❜ josh whispers as he wipes his eyes.
right? how does it feel? do you enjoy feeling terrorized? humiliated? i mean, panicked? all those emotions that my sisters got to feel once one year ago! only guess what? they didn't get to laugh it off! no! nope! no no no! they're gone!
REGULATIONS
oh sure. i'm totally just crying out for help. "help me! oh help me! help help." come on! come on! it was just for fun! i mean, so you got a little bit of egg on your face, right? nobody got hurt--
BASICS
howdy! my name is rowan, but you can call me rowie. i'm eighteen years old, a second semester full-time freshman, who has two current jobs! this blog is going to have extremely spotty activity, so if you could be patient, that would be awesome!
following + unfollowing
this blog is extremely private & selective. because of this, i am very particular on who i decide to and not follow back. 99% of the time, it has nothing to do with you or your writing. i simply like having a calm dash, and following too many people brings up a bit of anxiety for me. I WILL ONLY BE ROLEPLAYING WITH MUTUALS. in terms of unfollowing, i may do so for a few reasons. if you don't cut your posts, if we're in a mutual and you unfollow me first, or if you send hate to me or one of my friends/vague about us (this may also result in a block). on ocassion, i might unfollow for untagged nsfw images, but that's very rare. on a slightly related note, i am open to mains & exclusives! just im me and we can totally talk about it!
other important things.
shipping is not my top priority, nor is it josh's. but, ngl, i am totally a sucker for ships as long as they have chemistry. i'm also totally fine with shipping josh with oc's, should the chemistry ever be there! although this blog is multi-ship, it should be mentioned that the only chris i will be shipping josh with is thecochiise. please respect this ! and, please, don't godmod my muse. i won't godmod yours. it's really just rude as #heck. there will be HEAVY TRIGGERS on this blog. they include, but are not limited to, blood, gore, cannibalism, murder, mental illness, suicide, and sexual content. all triggers will be tagged as "[trigger] //". if i ever forget to tag something for you, just let me know and i will do so automatically! i want everyone to feel comfortable.
and that's pretty much it! this isn't necessary, especially if you feel uncomfortable about passwords, but if you could send your favorite joke or pun into my ask, i would really appreciate it! it just lets me know that you read my rules, and they make me laugh a lot. but, like i said, it totally isn't necessary! thanks for taking the time to read my rules!
default verse. takes place anywhere between chapter one and chapter two of until dawn. he's isolated himself away from his "friends" after the disappearnce of his sisters, but that doesn't mean he's not planning anything.
takes place approximately three weeks after the events of until dawn. josh has been found, but he's not –––– he's not quite josh, anymore. his teeth are sharp and his eyes are dim, and he's craving the taste of raw meat. he's not quite a wendigo, but he's not human, either.
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"Too often have I heard of duty," she cried. "But am I not of the House of Eorl, a SHIELDMAIDEN and not a dry-nurse. I have waited on faltering feet long enough. Since they falter no longer, it seems, may I not now spend my life as I will?"
ABOUT SECTION
Full Name: joshua washington.
Nicknames: josh, bro.
Age: 20 (as of early 2015).
Birth date: may 3rd, 1995.
Ethnicity: half egyptian.
Gender: cis male.
Romantic Orientation: biromantic.
Sexual Orientation: bisexual.
Religion: atheist
Spoken Language: english & french, both fluent.
Current Living Arrangements: fluxuates between his parents "mansion" and his (rather large) apartment.
Occupation: college dropout.
Relationships
Parents: melinda washington (mother), bob washington (father, distant).
Siblings: hannah & beth washington (deceased).
Romantic Partner: none.
Children: none.
Physical Traits
Eye Color: green.
Hair Color: dark brown.
Height: 5'9"
Body Build: slender.
Tattoos & Piercings: none.
Notable Physical Traits: his skin is the shade of "caramel". when he smiles, it's with his whole face and being. he has scars along his forearms, there due to past attempts of suicide.
Phobias and Disorders
Phobias: monophobia. athazagoraphobia.
Mental Disorders: paranoid schizrophrenia. major depression.
Time of Diagnosis: the depression was diagnosed at age eleven. he as been undiagnosed for everything else.
Personality
Intelligence: he's very intelligent, but doesn't apply it. he dropped out of college.
Determination levels: extremely dependent on subject. if it's only about himself, he will be highly determined.
Likes: drinking, sleeping, movies, baseball, partying.
Dislikes: excessive heat. being alone. being sober. medication. his therapists.
crying out for help.
who is in control?
turned into a monster.
VERSE NAME.